15 Th August, Our Independent Day???

Coming August 15 is Mother India's 61st Birth day. I just celebrated my 29Th birth day. As this is my first birthday after my marriage, and on my wife's request I had to cut cake, celebrated with friend with blowing out candles and a little party. My past birth days were just ordinary day, at best I went to Temple for God's blessing. Apart from that I remind my mom and dad that I am growing . Interestingly, I came to know my birth day for the first time while filling my High School Certificate exam. How backward I was! But I remember each August 15Th how I celebrated from my childhood days. That day was no less joyous for me. Going to school early mooring,flag hosting,few words from teachers about independence day and then sweet. In my school days I was NCC Sergent. After flag hosting I was marching past, saluting our national flag with pride along with my small cadet contingent. It was a moment of pride. Nothing can compensate this. Since then I had a burring desire to join in Army and server for my country. Patriotism was completely imbibed in my mind and blood. But after 15 years today I am eagerly waiting to process my Green Card and desert my country. I regret for my self pride and nationality.


I was reading an article in CNN. The excerpt goes here:

We love our country. World Values Survey found that 77 percent of Americans are very proud of their nationality. That puts us in a first place tie with the Irish. Australia was next and no one else was really even close.

Today I am in USA, temporarily for work. Just saw July 4Th - A magnificent independence day celebration in Boston. People feel proud of their county. Everybody had American flag in their hand. Lots of crackers lightening sky. All praise their founding fathers for making such a wonderful country in the world. Everybody was uttering "God Bless America". For few moment I was puzzled, what should I say. Yes , I too said loudly God Bless America. Such an amazing country! A real democratic country. A country of the people,by the people and for the people. And really it is.

I still love my country and have same patriotism. But do not know why I detest that much same time. I do not feel pride for our founding fathers. Gandhi ji brought independence but his followers were not enough visionaries to shape the country in right direction. Our leaders are not leaders, they are opportunists, they are cowards, they are selfish with mean minded. And forget about their knowledge and guidance. I lament that I am being guided by this kind of leaders. As a leader they do not know what is right and wrong for country except what is good for them. As American feel proud to be an American and thank God. I ask God why did he leave me among these demons.

Though I inherited my independence but I feel lost it. How can I say that I am Independent,where I can not have my own right, can not breath fresh air, struggle every moment for food, can not raise voice against wrong and lots more....! I do not feel pride saluting again ever in Aug 15Th. Give me my Independence back, please!!!